I recently learned two interesting things.
- We - we being people in general - are not good at guessing what will make us happy.
- We are unable to discern actual happiness from simulated happiness.
#2 doesn't mean the kind of happiness you get from beer. It means the kind you get from embracing something in your life that isn't great, from saying over and over again that you don't mind, from, basically, faking it until you make it.
The upshot of these two things is that agonizing over choices is truly pointless. You suck at knowing which of two things will make you happier, AND you'll just make your own happiness if you do chose the wrong thing.
Yesterday in the car Crockett and I were talking about some folks we know. Both of these people take their lives very seriously. They're not without humor, of course - one of them is the funniest dude I know - but they're incapable of lightheartedness when it comes to their own situations. Crockett and I think we both tend towards the alternative, particularly when it comes to careers. We both have sort of an 'eh' attitude when it comes to deciding how we'll spend 40+ hours a week. "Well, try it. What's the worst that can happen." Perhaps it will be hilarious and I'll get blog fodder. Perhaps it will be so terrible even fake happiness won't cut it. Won't know unless you try. Etc. Etc.
This commentary is leading to a specific event.
I'm interviewing for a job.
I'm not giving up on school, don't fret. (At least not yet). I don't have a good sense of what the next six months looks like. This is sort of a out-of-the-blue-left-field opportunity that hey, what the hell, amirite.
The thing is, if I'm going to get real happiness one way and fake happiness the other, and I won't be able to tell the difference, and I have no good way of knowing which is which, how on earth am I to decide anything?
In general I veer towards new as opposed to old. As in, something I haven't tried before something I have.
How do you make big decisions?